Saturday, February 12, 2011

I miss you, Abah....

Abah and mom on abah's 79 birthday
Today after almost two months abah left us, I cried. I thought I'm over it but I was wrong. I never cried like today. I'm not sure why suddenly I have this strong feeling about him buy maybe I haven't read Yaasin for almost two weeks. 

Well, I was having my tea at Old Timer Kopitiam with my hubby, Zaki and Zara. I was having Mee Soup and Kopi 'O' while my hubby had ubi rebus (steamed tapioca),  Zaki Kuew Tiaw Soup and Zara Roti bakar with Kaya and Butter. The three of them ordered milo iced even though outside was raining heavily.

Normally the coffee shop plays mostly 70's songs like D'Lloyd, Carpenters, and at one time Knock Three Times (my favorite song when I was young) but today the coffee shop played nasyid and salawat Nabi. The rendition of the salawat nabi was really good until I felt the loss of abah. Images of abah splashed in front of me. Without realising it, my tears started to trickle down my cheek. Luckily not many people around and the guy who was sitting in front of us, left 5 minutes before I cried.

When I reached home, I decided to read surah Yaasin for abah. As I was about to read, I feel very sad that abah is no more around. As I started reading the Yaasin, I cried and my kids were all puzzled why suddenly ibu was crying. One after another came to my room sitting next to me and wondering until I have to stop reading and explained to them that I miss abah. They said they miss atuk too. 

After I finished reading the Yaasin, I called my mom. Hearing her voice helped to ease the pain and I told her that today I felt abah was with me and I miss him so much. We talked for twenty minutes and I'm happy that mom is getting healthier and stronger.

 Abah, Zai doakan abah semoga berada di golongan orang-orang yang soleh dan beriman..Amin.


  1. And now I'm crying too. Today is my sister's wedding and my father is not here to share it with us. I can't say that the tears will ever stop, but their strength keeps us strong.

    Thank you for sharing this moment with me, it is special to know that we all suffer and find strength as we lose a parent. Bless you and your special family!

    PS ... the food you talk about always sounds so delicious ;-)

  2. Thanks Jodene. Any major festival or event, they will be remembered. No matter how long they have left us.

    Say congratulation to your sister and your new brother-in-law on their big day. Hope you enjoy the day too.

    With regards to the food, it is delicious. Come and I take you out to taste all these good foods.