Friday, December 24, 2010

A Quick Glance on 2010..

Wow! Another 6 more days and we will say goodbye to 2010. Are we ready to welcome 2011? Ready or not, we have no choice. It will comes and nobody can stop it except God.Well what have I achieved this year? Nothing much I guess. Let's see what I have achieved. 

Career wise, I have to say that I lost my steam this year. Used to be like Speedy Gonzales but this year, I feel more like I a tortoise. Slow and steady but still deliver. Guess age is catching up with me.

Health wise, not so good.  I took quite a number of medical leave compared to previous years. My knee and back problem are enough to slow me down. I have to be careful when doing my exercises or playing games. No more badminton or tennis or squash for me. Sob! Sob! Sob! 

Financial wise, just so so. Not so great and not so bad but my new house is taking a big bite from my saving but worth it. I don't know whether I can recover those money. Insyaallah boleh!

On personal front, I have achieved what I set in the beginning of the year except one thing, losing weight. That mission will be carried forward to 2011 and I really hope that I will achieve it. I need motivation and anybody want to join me? We can compare result. Oh another achievement, I will be moving to my dream house next week. Kids will have more space to run around and bigger place to clean up.

On the downside, I lost my dad this year and my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. The last two months of this year has been very challenging where I have to juggle between work, family and dad. Thank Allah for giving me the strength to go through the last two month and thanks to my friends who provided the support during the difficult period. No words can describe my gratitude.

Lastly, I wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. Salam

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Goodbye Dad.

My dad passed away peacefully on Tuesday at 7.25pm. I was lucky to be with him. All his daughters were with him during his last moments. On Friday, when he lost a lots of blood, doctor gave him until morning but boy, dad was a fighter.

He survived for another four more days. On that Tuesday 14th Dec 2010, I just came out from meeting at 5pm when my oldest sister called me and said doctor has advised mom to take dad back home. When mom heard that, she called my oldest brother who brought an imam with him, to conduct the special prayer. This prayer is just to ease him to move to the next journey in his life.

When I heard the news, I quickly cleared some of my work and left office. As I was parking my car, I saw my brother with the imam leaving the parking. So I quickly walked to the ward. As I put down my backpack, my dad condition  changed. I saw Mom was standing at the window and when we saw dad's condition we quickly called mom. As we surrounded him, mom recited the shahadah to dad's ear. We quickly called the nurses who was stationed right in-front of dad's ward and they quickly brought in their equiments to monitor dad's heartbeat.

As we gathered around him, with my eldest sister reading Surah al-Bakarah and the rest reading Surah Yaasin,  dad left us. He went off peacefully where he just looked like he was sleeping. We cried but I managed to control my tears. We kissed him goodbye before they took him to mortuary where they did the final preparation before the funeral.

We took dad back to his house in Seremban, which was left empty since September, and get it ready to receive him. He reached the house at midnight and the neighbours came to pay respect to him. 

After the subuh prayer, we invited the jemaah surau for tahlil and at 8.30am, he was taken to surau for the prayer. His was laid at Makam Tuan Haji Said and his grave is facing the army camp. Yes, dad was an ex-army. Mom said to him after the funeral, "Tok, goodbye. Rest in peace tok. See you are facing the army camp. Goodbye."

We said our final goodbye to him before we left the cemetery but as we passed by on the way back, we can see his grave from the road. Abah, even though you are no more with us, you will always be in our lives and will alway be remembered by us.

 "Abah, Zai doakan roh abah di tempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin." Al-fatihah..... 

Monday, December 6, 2010

My son has grown up!

Yesterday I attended my youngest two year-end school's concerts and graduation. My son attended Little Tots,the kindergarten, for two years and I can see that he has changed from a shy, insecure person to a cheerful and outgoing guy. Changes in his personalities has given me confidence that he can adapt well in standard 1 next year. I hope he will not cry for me to be with him at school.

I still remembered last year when it was always a battle to get him to go to school. He will gives all kind of excuses and refused to get on the school bus. It was very stressful for him and also for me. I have to be hard on him and sometimes he will cried at the school gate when I dropped him off. But two months before the year end, he changed. He started to enjoy school and didn't give me any problem anymore.

I thought that he will still gives me problem. So I decided to send my little girl to the same school, to accompany him. To make sure that he didn't feel abandon. For your information, I have no problem with my 4 years old girl as she is always confidence and not scared of anything. She can take care of herself and can fight with her brothers and most of the times the brothers will be crying for help.

But I was wrong. He doesn't feel abandon at all. Instead he immediately take care of his little sister. He will ensure she drinks and eats at school, protect the sister from others and the cute thing is, he always reminded the sister what the teacher said. Whoa..he really plays the role of big brother beyond my expectation.No more excuses and will be the first to be ready for school. Wow! What a change!

Not only he has grown in term of his personality, he also shown a lot of improvement in his studies and now he can read and write very well. Zaki, keep up the good work and hope you will continue to excel in Standard One and Zara, continue the good work. Both of you can be what you dream to be..Amen. And thank you to all the teachers at Little Tots for making my children believe in themselves.