Tuesday, July 28, 2015

At two junction

Gosh! It has been ages since I update anything. I have been busy playing with Wordpress that I neglected my first born baby here... Well, frankly speaking, I have not written anything in English for so long except for the emails that I have to respond in the office. Otherwise, I've been busy polishing my Bahasa, which I'm proud to say that I have improved compared to two years ago. That is a big change for me. However, I'm still struggling to respond an official email in Bahasa. Words didn't come that easily whenever I tried to write in Bahasa. Hopeless case! Hahahahaa..

Well, of late I have been thinking a lot, thinking about my future. Where I want to be not in few years time but next two months. Yup, my contract with 7E is going to end this October. To be more specific, it will end in mid-October. Not that they don't want me, but it was more of whether I want to continue with them.

Before I decided to come back from the semi-retirement, I was working on my pet project or sometimes, I called it Option B. I have been dreaming of this project since four years ago. Of having a bookstore and selling stationary, but over the years,  it changed. From stationary to cafe. So, for the past two years, I was working on the idea. Looking at the fund and the market and so on. Finally, I got the chances when I opted to accept the Maxis scheme. Off I went and happily putting the vision into the plan.

But... the vision, the dream was stopped by my sleeping partner. It took me about a year to convince him of this bookcafe concept. We started looking for the ideal location, and we found it and now we are ready to move to second gear. I also work on the timeline where it will be ready just in time when my contract expired.

The current project, which I'm currently involved is expected to complete by July, but lo and behold... the project got delayed. From July to October and now seems it will be delay further.

I scratched my head. I thought if the rollout takes place in July, the operation stabilization is expected for three months, then it is just nice for me to leave. But it doesn't look that way. Hmm... I can't be selfish and just pack and go. But my conscious mind tells me not to abandon my team. They are a young team. They need guidance, and they have been telling me not to go too. They wanted me to continue at least for another year.

At the other end, my pet project is taking shape. The idea that I conceive is slowly turning into a reality. The project is my new baby. I wanted to see it grow from an unknown to someone. I don't want to miss the steps, the fumble, and the push it going to make. I want to be there. To be together with my crew and to get the satisfaction of running my baby. It will give me the satisfaction.

In one hand, it is my responsibilities to my beloved team, while, on the other hand, it is my responsibilities to my own satisfaction and family. I have to think really hard about it and to decide the way to move forward. People might say, hire someone to run the business, but will I get the satisfaction? Maybe not.

So it is a tough decision for me. It is between my obligation to my team, my boss and my CIO versus my dream, my passions, and future... Whatever it is, I have him, the ALMIGHTY,  to seek for guidance. Insya Allah, I will able to make the decision soon. Meantime, I'll let my mind do the pro and con of continue to work or leave.

Until then.. goodnight.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Midnight Ramblings

This is what happened when I have nothing to update. So I rambled....

Zaiabdrahman: Hey Zai! Where have you been? You have been neglecting this blog for months. Just because you have a new boyfriend, you neglected me. That is totally unfair. What is so special with your new boyfriend?

zai: Calm down, friend.

Zaiabdrahman: Oh.. what do you call me?

zai: *scratching her head* Hmm... friend.

Zaiabdrahman: Friend? You told me that I'm the special one. The one and only one for you. Forever together. Do you remember that?

zai: *slowly nodding her head* But things happened. I need a more exciting boyfriend.

Zaiabdrahman: Now you called me boring.

zai: No..no.. I didn't mean that.

Zaiabdrahman: Then what?

zai: *Lost of word* Hmmm,,,,You need to be more flexible. The other guy can speak malay and english but you can only speak english.

Zaiabdrahman: I can accommodate that. I can learn malay very fast. It won't be a problem.

zai: It is to me.

Zaiabdrahman: What is the problem?

zai: The other guy wants me to be in an exclusive relationship with him

Zaiabdrahman: Are...are... you leaving me? *feeling sad*

zai: *shaking head* No, I would never leave you. I might be away for long, but I will always come and visit you. You are very dear to me. I first started with you. Learn my way around you. I can't just leave you like that.

Zaiabdrahman: *Feeling down* *Almost wanted to cry*

zai: Hey! Don't cry. You are a man. Fight for it.

Zaibadrahman: Tell me how?

zai: Just seduce my brain and my fingers. Get them to cooperate so that I can spend more time here.

Zaiabdrahman: That's it? Seduce your brain and fingers? I think I can do it. *smile slowly"

zai: *nodding head* Yup.. seduce them.

Zaiabdrahman: I will. I will.  Thanks love for the tips. I love you.

zai: I love you too... Bye.. I'll come again.

Zaiabdrahman: Oh please do that! Bye!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Knocking on our door...

Hello! I’m back. Have I been away? Not really. I was just busy playing with Wordpress. Trying to out what is good and bad about Wordpress. So far, I like it…. Check me out at zaiabdrahman.wordpress.com; just a caution though… the blog is in mixed lingo… I have english and malay update that I posted over there… Hmmmactually there are more malay post than english.., apa-apa aja lah.

Hey, do you know that something is just lurking around the corner? No? Yes? Well…if you know it is good, if not let me tell you what it is… (1) Ramadan is just around the corner. It will be knocking on our door this coming Saturday. (2) Tomorrow is a big day for me and my hubby. It is our 22nd anniversary… Wow… it has been a long journey full of ups and downs, lows and highsbut I won’t share the story on my journey with my partner in crime today. Let's talk about Ramadan….

How ready are we with Ramadan? If you are adults and  teenagers , you should be ready. Ready to give our tummy a rest for a month. But is it really a rest knowing that our society has a tendency to eat a lot during iftar? Or some might be eating and drinking for three quarter of the night. Well, if you do, cut down on that.

Okay, back to my family. Are we ready? Of coursethat is always a standard answer. Right? Well, actually my two young kids are really looking forward to this fasting month. They have been talking for a week on this. If Zaki is confident that he can fast the whole month, InsyaAllah he can, I’m not sure about Zara.

Zara is only eight and she has been having some tummy problem, on and off. To be exact, she has gastric. It will be very challenging for her. Well, nothing much I can do except to make sure that her condition did not get worse during the month of Ramadan. Anyway, both of them are not at the age where it is compulsory for them to fast yet. But somehow, they need to start practicing it.

Oh ya… in this holy month of Ramadan, Insyaallah, I am going to cut down on reading those books. What books? Hah…the lovey dovey, mushy mushy novels. I’m gonna spend, Insya Allah, more time reading the Al Quran and also a few books that I bought earlier like Aisyah Ummul Mukminin, Hassan Al-Bana, Salahuddin Al-Ayubi and few others. Those books have been in my TBR (To Be Read) list for quite sometimes. Instead of gracing my bookshelf, it is time for the books to grace my nightstands and my table.

Okay folks… gtg.. haha.. what the $$$$ is that.. Well... I got to go. I need to finish this book Cooper-K by RodieR before the month of Ramadan and also wishing you selamat berpuasa.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Exploring my new toy -

I'm still learning and exploring WordPress. So far, I 'm impressed with WordPress. Uploading pictures, copying contents from my blogspot to here is also easy. Checking on the stats is also easy as 1,2,3. But there are so many other things that I have still yet to explore.

I have not finished playing with the tools and all the linkage that is available.The tools and appearance will be my next target for me to play. Will changing the layout and colors as easy as blogspots? Fonts setting is another one that I'm looking forward to.

Besides the few good things that I have found, I have found one drawback. I might be wrong but this is what I found. WordPress gives limited space to each user. I'm not sure whether every one of the users is assigned 3GB in the beginning. So, people like me will find 3GB is enough. Eh... I'm not sure about it in the long run, but for now it is just enough. If you are heavy users and really use your blogs to generate income, you may need to pay for additional space.

Okay before I'm logging off, let's play with adding media this morning. Here...Unchained Melody by Righteous Brothers. This video is from Ghost movie which is one of my all time favorite movie. Oh yeah!... the lyrics attached is the lyrics too.

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
Time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow
To the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh
"Wait for me, wait for me"
I'll be coming home, wait for me

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, for your touch
A long, lonely time
Time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me
Lonely mountains gaze
At the stars, at the stars
Waiting for the dawn of the day

All alone I gaze
At the stars, at the stars
Dreaming of my love far away

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, for your touch
A long, lonely time
Time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Paroxysm of Reminisce

Ever heard of this song before? Paroxysm of Reminisce. Huh! Can’t pronounce it? Haha....garbled it up? Whatever it is, this is my latest go to song when I need something to pump me up. What? An old lady listening to this kind of song? Hey!… I’m might be old, but I always feel young at heart.

When I first heard this song, my first reaction was “WOW," and seriously I like this song since the first time I heard it. This song has been featured in my playlist since they released it few weeks back.

WellThis song is by a bunch of guys that some of them, I know them personally. They are my son’s friends and, in fact, my son has some touch to the song too. A little tiny little bit of melody in there. Huh! Frankly I don’t know whether he has any contribution to the song, but for the past one week, they have been to my house practicing/recording some songs. Hmm…By the way, these guys called themselves ASADBand or As Simple As Death Band. Scary name  kan???

What make me so into this song. Well, whenever I listened to this song it reminds me the time of me and my brother and my sister imitating ourselves to be rock stars. We used to listen to Deep Purple, Led Zepplin, Uriah Heep and many other bands that I kind of forgot them. It was a joy for us at that time when the three of us will sit at the living room and have the LP record on at night. At that time, there was no CD or MP3 or iPod. Just the old vinyl record. Me always pretend to be Lee Karslake, the drummer, my sister guitarist and singer with my brother the lead guitar. Huh… What a memory it was!

Two days ago, I posted this song on my FB and tagged my sister. My sister commented, ‘Nice… ala-ala Iron Maiden.’ (just like Iron Maiden). That is a compliment from a person who listened mainly to rock and heavy metals.

Does this song has anyone else listening to it in this house. You bet! My three other kids love this song too. The have this song in their youtube playlist too. Ibu doesn’t have to influence them to listen to this song. They will search for it themselves.

I hope ASADBand will continue to produce good songs. And meantime, why don’t you hit the play button and enjoy the song


Do you like it? And here is their first song, Your Rise, that they released it before Paroxysm of Reminisce.

Monday, April 14, 2014

Is it a special day?

Woke up with a pain in my back
And no water in the shower
Is it a bad day
To celebrate my birthday?

It was supposed to be
A special day to me
My body has a different thing to say.

With hot bottle on my back
and a book in hand
I celebrate my birthday
with nothing on my mind

After half a century
My joints becomes rusty
With creaking here and there
It say take care

I used to be
the star in the team
With so much energy
It is the envy of the team

But thirty years of working
And a neglect to my body
I become fat and lazy

It is no one fault
That I becomes this big
Can I dream
To be skinny again?

I bet you can.....

#Power of Attraction!....

p/s: This was meant for my other blog...

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Getting fit again

Part of SAHM - feeding kitty
Hello! It has been a while since I update anything here. Didn't do it on purpose, but I was busy. Busy with my new life as Stay At Home Mom. Frankly speaking, all those years working in big corporate world didn’t prepare me for this kind of storm.

It has been two months of tiring world for me, and I am still adjusting to the new role. Well if it took three months for me to be confirmed when I was working so I guess I need that one more month to be confirmed that I am fit to be SAHM.

Ha..ha.. ha… whether I’m fit or not I will be stuck with this new role. Well not everything is bad in this new role. There are good and bad thingsmore good things than bad actually

Ah.. enough of my boring stories as SAHM. So what else have I been working on besides SAHM?

Well, working on my health. Well it was always my priority to get myself fit again. Years of neglect and abuse on my body did take a toll on my health. I was basically having big mobility issues last two years and guess what, the two months that I stayed at home has improved my health a lot. Especially to my mobility.

Last weekend, after months of avoiding going shopping I went to Alamanda. Heh! I walked for quite a distance before my back started to get cramps. It was basically walking, stopping, sitting and walking again for me. I was happy with that progress as previously I could only walk for 50-100m before my back started cramping and causing the whole body stiff.

And on Sunday, I went to Kajang Metro. This time shopping for printer. I was without printer for almost a year, and finally after putting off buying it for a few months, I finally get a Canon printer. Good enough to cater for my current needs.

Ha..ha..ha…..again, the same technique was applied as I was in Alamanda, but this time, I covered quite a distance before I need to rest and sit. That was an achievement, right? Yes, indeed!

But I have to pay for the price of overdoing this. My knee suddenly gets locked up, and I had a problem to stands for a while. Luckily I have the cooling pad that the moment I reached home, I applied it over my throbbing knee. It helps, but the soreness is still there.

And today, I feel much better. And I plan to do nothing for today…I need to give my knee some more rest. And also I’m going to cook curry – not chicken but crab… Wanna join me for dinner tonight?

Hahahaha....Okay..... got to go, and it rhyming with Let it Go which I’m listening to now… Chiao…